A Fresh Start

 Recently I decided that with working at home and all of the additional time I have for hobbies, that I should in fact get some more hobbies. I thought about all of the things I love to do and how I feel most happy spending my time. It is clear that reading, writing, planning, budgeting, teaching, and interacting with people are all top priorities. 

Of course I love spending hours cleaning my home and cooking my family meals, but I want more than a clean house and full belly. I want to enjoy my time and create and teach. There are many seasons in life and many ways that we can all challenge ourselves to do more. 

Personally this year has been a year of growth, change, and challenges. Growth in the sense that we grew our home, our finances, family, and opportunities. Change in the sense that we changed address and family size as well as faced the many challenges of existing at home 99% of the time. 

All of the things I previously loved and enjoyed doing, soon became mundane and I couldn't focus my time or energy on any of them. I found myself wondering about the state of our world and the state of our future as a society. Those thoughts constantly distracted me from taking time each day to focus on here and now. 

The further I got away from the things I typically enjoyed, the sooner I found myself miserable. From all of this I was able to re-energize and remember other passions I have had. I took the time to enjoy painting, coloring, decorating, planning, and reinventing our budget among many other things. This has led to me learning a lot of new things about myself.

I decided I want to post YouTube videos and I want to post about all of the things I am passionate about and want to share with the world. I also want to post about funny things that have happened in my life. Overall I want to enjoy the time and energy put into learning a new skill and the struggles that go along with creating something new. 

This past year I have spent so much time designing and posting on social media for my work and that has sparked a different creative side to myself. All of that creativity needed an outlet and the ability to explore something more.

My videos are weak right now, but each time I make another I feel like I am learning more and getting progressively better. When I was in high school I used to play around with video making software and footage of my family. I wasn't any good, but I enjoyed it and found it satisfying. I didn't keep up with it because of college and other commitments, but now is the perfect time to get back into it.

There is no time like the present to do something new, do something fun, be creative, and just explore. It is okay to fail, but just keep trying and maybe it could be something beautiful. Maybe it can be exactly what you've been missing.

I have been thinking I need people to fill the hole I feel in my life, but really I just needed myself. I needed me to put the pieces of myself back together and remember all of the things I love about life and about creating.

Here is to a fresh start, on the same journey.